Love , had to collapse down.

Future, in the end would also pass by.

Left with only a heart that's wrecked. Wound, it's deeper than can be healed?

Woke up from the dreams because got awakened by the tears.

The adversities made my heart exhausted.

Pray to let my heart that's hurt, that it should be strong.

Even though it's going to be void of strength, I'll resist and stand up to it fervently.

A person alone don't have that much right.

Can't make me hurt till death. Whatever I must be able to accept it?

Life merely got hurt, But in the end it should not get destroyed?

It's merely that today my heart is shattered.

Remind myself that come what may,

I still must live on?

Deceived by love, it's also merely just be hurt. It's of no value, can't let it destroy my life?

Cutting the wrist don't help with anything. The more you emphasize it, the more I cut, the more you hurt your heart. However much more you do, it would also be more broken hearted?

This is all

- I am complicated

- Out of oder

- Nature's way of thinking out the herd

- So splite up inside

- Slowly die inside

everything its seems like.... Never mind.....

I am cry inside.. But no one knows it's... but me...

- Painful and Meaningless

- Pain in my heart

- Darkness in my brain

- Misery is my life

- Sadness is my soul

Befor I was afraid 2 lose in everything...

I was often shut up, never wanted 2 talk or say was is in my mind.

But today I understand now that 2 lose is was my life is about..

Now I'm trying 2 not be afraid more 2 lose... cause 2 lose is was my life is about.

Nothing was meaning to be forever with me, nothign was mening to be here to make me smile forever.

2 los it's was my life it's about,

I am not one in billion to win a life so bright and happy.

My life it's supports to be dark and cold.

It's just only for me to acept, realis and understand this is all I got.

Stop up and breath, its time.

Peoples around the world have always an responsiribility to take off own misstake, wrong or right.

Everyone has being lost sometimes right?
and everyone dosen't always know what to do or not to do?
we all are sure its like that, but everyone dosent always know what they should do or not do.
can't its be because of, we dosent always know who we are or where we have ourself.

I am the first exempel for "I dont know who I am" -"where Do I have myself"
I do wrong things oftan, and I always confuse about myself. I never know how I should do to make myself sure about myself.
I wish I could stop being so confuse and lost, I wish I could stop to try to be someone Im not.
I wanna be sure about myself, so I can stop do things I dont want to.

Now I stop up and stare, think and breath.
Time to take care, time to not fear more.
Time to know and feel and listen on my soul and heart calling after to be listen by myself.
Calling after help to stop being so lost and so confuse, try to breath and find myself.

I need only one act and one me, I dont need alots of act and alots of me.
I wanna be one and I wanna be sure who she is. I wanna be happy with myself if its are possible
I wanna have strong legs to stand up with and be always sure.
I dont wanna lose anymore, I dont wanna stop unaware doing things I dont want to, I dont wanna be in uncontrolable.

The time is here, I have to do it even if I dont have so much energy to, but I will not have any energy at all if I dont choose NOW, NOW its the time, I cant wait more and I should NOT wait more, if I do I sure I will not surviver more.

am I selfish if I do it? =/